By 1991 our budget was
working pretty well, I thought. Carolyn was doing way better than
the first two years. She would work with me on it and was even
writing checks, paying the regular bills, which took a load off
me. I took care of balancing the checkbook and made sure the money
was there. In 1991, Carolyn worked for a mortgage loan company
as a supervisor of 50 ladies. She had been under a lot of pressure
and wanted to quit. She was not always in the best of moods at
home, but I didn't really know how much it was affecting her.
I kept saying to her, just hold on a little longer. We had gotten
involved in a "Christian" investment group just before
we started our budget in 1986, (more about that later) and it
was costing us a lot of money each month, so we needed her paycheck.
Our Heavenly Father was beginning to teach me a lesson of trusting
One Monday evening in
February 1991 we went with a group to hear a well-known preacher
that was a 2-hour drive for us. Her attitude that night seemed
to be better than it had been the last few weeks. She was smiling
and seemed to be happy. We arrived back home at 1am. We went to
bed, then she said to me, "sit up and look at me". "I
quit my job today!" I can't tell you how I felt. I knew we
needed her check to pay those investment bills. She said, "I'll
cut grass". I was in shock. All I could see was bankruptcy.
When I said a lot of money I mean $300 to $800 a month, which
we had paid for the preceding 24 months. It took me about two
weeks before I could think straight. How would we be able to pay
those bills each month?
How I would like to
say that in Malachi 3:10 God said to prove Him to give. He said
He could pour out a blessing that we could not receive. He also
said He would rebuke the devourer for our sake. Now the investment
group did not come to us for any money that next month or the
next month after that, but each month I was concerned that it
would. For the next 24 months, we didn't have to pay extra to
the investment group. God rebuked the devourer, and He poured
out blessings also. We want to think of a blessing as pouring
out of money, but it was not money. Our home life was improved
1000%. Sex was up 1000%, Understanding was up a 1000%. Communication
between us was up 1000%. And not only that, her dad got sick about
the same time and she was able to spend time and help him before
Now, after that night
she told she had quite her job, it took me about 2 weeks before
I could begin to look at our budget plan seriously again. I was
a little depressed, yes I'm a Christian. We are human and I was
facing something I had not faced before. I think God was teaching
me to trust Him. I was only looking at what the investment group
problems could do to us (It was the devourer).
I started from scratch
and reworked our budget again with 36% less income. As I went
through it I could make it work on paper with $0 surplus to do
anything else. She cut grass like she said. We bought a JD mower,
trailer and some other equipment. She made enough to make up any
short fall in the budget. It was real tight again but we made
it. Another blessing that came from her cutting grass was our
two sons were able to help her part of the time. It was a small
operation, but she did have two or three commercial accounts.
She cut grass for two
years every day. Then one of her Customers that knew she had worked
in customer service in the past told her that his company had
an opening in customer service and wanted to talk to her. She
told them the salary she wanted, but not a supervisory position.
They said ok and she went to work.
Now she was making more
money, but the investment group problems began to awake again.
After two years of not having to pay extra to the group, it started
again. God was faithful. He supplied all our needs and rebuked
the devourer. By this time it was funny to me. God is a good God.
Our giving to missions actually increased during this time.
Before all this happened,
if you had asked me what do you want to go through for God to
show you that you can trust him, I would not have picked this
situation, but looking back, I'm so thankful.